Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nla yoklu\u011fun aras\u0131nda kalmayaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k, sadece olmayacaks\u0131n. Sensiz kalma ihtimali olmayacak aleyhine kurulmu\u015f c\u00fcmlelerimin sonunda. Belki birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r aras\u0131nda unutulacaks\u0131n bir m\u00fcddet sonra. \u0130\u00e7imden olmayacak, bo\u015f bir ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131n g\u00f6lgesine s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmayacak sana sitemlerim. Hani hep k\u0131zard\u0131n ya “Konu\u015f konu\u015f konu\u015f” derdin, hayk\u0131rabilir miyim \u015fimdi korkakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. B\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu mavi d\u00fc\u015fleriyle avunan yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, art\u0131k sahiplenilmeyecek olman\u0131n buruklu\u011funu ya\u015farken, hayk\u0131rabilir miyim dersin, susar m\u0131y\u0131m, g\u00fcl\u00fcp ge\u00e7er miyim yoksa \u2026?Asl\u0131nda al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmal\u0131y\u0131m kendimi hi\u00e7 d\u00f6nmeyecekmi\u015fsin, d\u00f6n\u00fclmeyecek bir yerdeymi\u015fsin gibi farzetmeli, unutmal\u0131. Seni hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015f gibi ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmeliyim. Var oldu\u011fum her yer a\u015fk(\u0131n) \u015fehri olmal\u0131 art\u0131k, yeniden sevmenin, sevilebilmenin yeri her yer, zaman\u0131 ya\u015fanan ve gelecek t\u00fcm zamanlar olmal\u0131 benim i\u00e7in. Evet, sayfalardan kopar\u0131p bir bir savurmal\u0131y\u0131m seni ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f t\u00fcm zamanlara, uzakla\u015fan her ad\u0131m\u0131mla hapsetmeliyim bu an\u0131lar soka\u011f\u0131na. Kopan takvim yapraklar\u0131 sensiz ge\u00e7en G\u00fcnleri saymamal\u0131, bende yoklu\u011funun g\u00fcncesini tutmay\u0131 art\u0131k b\u0131rakmal\u0131y\u0131m. Her yeni G\u00fcne seni getirmedi diye isyan etmemeliyim. Kabullenebilmeli, hazmedebilmeli, ald\u0131rmamal\u0131 hatta sana hak verebilmeliyim. Bu sat\u0131rlarla b\u00fcy\u00fcmeye ba\u015flamal\u0131y\u0131m, s\u0131rf seni ve \u00e7ocukla\u015fan bir a\u015fk\u0131 kolayca unutabilmek i\u00e7in. Zira yoksun. Sanki benim hi\u00e7 senim olmam\u0131\u015f, sanki bizi hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015f\u0131z, sanki a\u015fk denen o hoyrat \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 m\u0131r\u0131ldanm\u0131\u015f ve sonra yar\u0131m b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f\u0131z gibi. Art\u0131k yeni bir \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemenin vakti, Ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, yitikli\u011fime hi\u00e7 ald\u0131rmadan,Sanki benim hi\u00e7 senim olmam\u0131\u015f gibi..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nla yoklu\u011fun aras\u0131nda kalmayaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k, sadece olmayacaks\u0131n. Sensiz kalma ihtimali olmayacak aleyhine kurulmu\u015f c\u00fcmlelerimin sonunda. Belki birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r aras\u0131nda unutulacaks\u0131n bir m\u00fcddet sonra. \u0130\u00e7imden olmayacak, bo\u015f bir ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131n g\u00f6lgesine s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmayacak sana sitemlerim. Hani hep k\u0131zard\u0131n ya “Konu\u015f konu\u015f konu\u015f” derdin, hayk\u0131rabilir miyim \u015fimdi korkakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. B\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu mavi d\u00fc\u015fleriyle avunan yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, art\u0131k sahiplenilmeyecek olman\u0131n buruklu\u011funu ya\u015farken, hayk\u0131rabilir miyim dersin, susar m\u0131y\u0131m,[Devam\u0131n\u0131 Oku…]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[229],"tags":[1380],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2366"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2366"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2366\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2366"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2366"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gncz.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2366"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}